So much of art is people wandering across something that you have created and saying to themselves or out loud if they are bold
“Wow that is pretty cool”
When they see something that is generated they don’t often even think about the work that went into creating it. There are those that call the state of creation the ‘flow’ state. So often when I move into that space-time seems to fly by and the outside world often shrinks away. Most of the time when I try to create something I start without much of a notion of where I will end up. Every time I take a step back and look at when I’ve painted or written I end up thinking to myself.
“Oh my god, this sucks so bad”
Almost all the art I created in the first 30 years of life I have destroyed because I honestly can’t stand to look at it. I keep throwing my heart at whatever I am doing again and again until I can start to tolerate my own creation.
But I never feel love. I never look at something I’ve created and say to myself
“Wow, that is pretty cool, I am so talented”
Even when complete strangers come out of nowhere and tell me that whatever I have made is the coolest thing they have ever seen I still only look at my creations and think…
‘It could be so much better’
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